pet names

i used to be set against pet names, like, “the fuck did you just call me?” “‘honey.’” but i’m getting soft in my old age and dating older and older men, who cannot always be expected to remember my name from the confines of their geriatric handicaps; ergo, pet names have become more acceptable to me.

names i’ve gotten fuzzy from being called: baby, dollface, cheese (gross lovey inside joke, sry), joozy, darlin’

names i have shuddered at being called: babe, juicy, sweetie, honey, love

these lists serve no purpose other than to record that at some point in time, someone has spoken to me with affection. it’s so easy to forget what it’s like to be cherished, in that way in which we cannot name what we’re missing. ugh feelings. i can’t even deal with myself when i get like this.